THE END.

recap: I have 2 days left of work. as of 12/21 i will be unemployed. And by the end of the first week in 2008 i will be homeless as well. Why is this not scaring me more?? I mean it has its moments. But mostly i have no plan and yet, i'm just fine with that. Does anyone remember old erin, cause i think i'm going insane. Someone call the crazy people moderators cause i think they need to find me a nice cushy cell. I mean i was the person with all the details always planned out. No corner unturned. Every thing scrutinized and examined from each possible angle. Never end something before you have the next chapter at least sketched out in a rough draft. Nope. At this moment in time, i don't have movers, i don't have a storage cell, no job, no prospective home, and best of all no plans.

I do have to say that i will miss nashville and all the people in it. there is only 2 degrees of separation in this small town and well, i will be leaving many friends. But it's time. Maybe even a little past time. It IS home to me and will always have a very special place in my heart (see "I'm in love" post from 3/30/07). These last 3.5 yrs have been wonderful and I have a lot of memories. I hope that we cross paths again one day, cause i'd like another go at this place. For now though, i feel pulled in a million different directions, but none holding me here. Funny how much i tried to plant roots here. I feel like all i'm coming up with is sand. And that's ok, i'm sure at least a few little seedlings took. At the end of the day, i know in my heart that they were just surface roots. not the kind that goes so far in the earth, you could never uproot it. Guess, it took God pulling up the "welcome" mat and replacing it with of those cheesy ones that says LEAVE on it for me to get the hint. That's my stubbornness shining through. Now, all i pray for is clarity and continued peace as I decide where He's leading me and leaning on His timing instead of my own impatience and indecidedness. guess it's THE END to another chapter.....